never wait for tomorrow what you can do today..
yes i know baby..you'll know some day that its cliche..but it's true..just do what you can do now dont put it off for later..there are benefits for that..you get to finish early..and you'll have time to correct if something goes wrong..and your mind wnuld not be burdened with the task..
i know the temptation to postpone will be high..but the benefit of promptly finishing your early will b rewarding..
dear baby.. have this bad mood but I happily will continue get through the day..aren't she cool your mother baby?hehe..
it's monday n there's so much to be done..I usually get hype up with all the tasks list..well that's me previously that's your mommy when she worked in an accounting firm ..where so much work to do yet so much fun to feel..while here..everything's so glumm..i dont like it here..but if its for you I will survive..
baby..have i told you how happy i am when i hear your heartbeat last saturday..they say your shape is stil like a kidney bean..still so small..i hope everything will b just fine..and i can see you at last my baby..btw they also say the firs three months is the best time to spur your growth..one month left..gotta speed up..been to loose to myself..since i crave for noodles..hope i can conquer the craving..
human..the power they have to love..do they realize it..
im sitting here at the waiting room of bunda hospital..waiting to see my obgyn..im patient number 2 today..while waiting..i notice from behind..there's a couple..the girl leans her head upon his shoulder..seeking for comfort..and his hand wrapped tightly yet compassionately on her head..as if he wants to make the sadness go away..a moment has passed..have my attention somewhere else..when i look back they're gone already..too bad i was going to see from in front of them because the view from behind is touching..see i feel the envy again..weirdo!why should I feel envy for sadness..why should I when I have so much blessings in this life..when Im expecting you dear baby..
envy
dear baby..dunno why..but ur mommy here lately always have the feeling of envy..towards everyone..while if I think it through..well I actually dont have to think it thru to know that I am blessed..i cant even count my blessings..there's too much of it..
Im going to have you in a shortwhile..that single thing still awes me..
I often feel glum..I think it's because I still can't believe I have the right to be happy..
well my conclusion is that I could not thank God enough for all this blessings..but I'll keep on trying..praising Allah SWT n hoping you my dear baby will be a better person than me..
crybaby mommy
baby,, your mommy,, is such a crybaby..
within this week, i've been crying like.. everyday
without clear cause,, well it's obvious because I'm sad..
but i dont know what made me sad..
sometimes it's because your father is not around..
or thought about stupid unimportant stuff like his/my ex-es
I really test your father patience..
by the way, I have rally of meetings, have to go now,,
see you baby,, smooch!
fullday
hi baby,
hehe i know i haven't had the right to call you baby..you haven't developed that far..
today your mommy got a lot on her list..i'm not feeling to well today so i skipped the office..hehe the term is not as right as when used with school..i did a little cleaning at home *happycleaningelf..n i went to have statement letter from bca finance,the leasing company..since my tax is overdue.longstory short *cutting on story about traffic..i finish the task and went to a mall to have your daddy's present..tomorrow is his birthday..wrote this from the cell..pretty tiresome..well lesson for today is dont put up till tomorrow what you can do today..i know it sounded cliché but once you finish your task you will feel relieve and in a sense..there's a feeling of freedom involved..
dear baby,
ur mommy is not a strong woman..i'm not a good person..have done lots mistakes..wondering what good things i've done which made having you is a possibility..
changes?
ard two weeks ago i found out that im pregnant..allahu akbar..never thought i ever could be..
first reaction is overwhelmed gratitude towards Allah..next is that i really want to make this world better..
though this something within me is just growing..i already have so much to tell for this soon to be baby
Only Write When I'm Glum
NeverSayNever
heheh,, just got from twitter homepage,, peeps there been posting on things they said never, but eventually they're end up doing..
intermezzo : im tired trying to figure out how to put a subject for my post,, so going to give up for the moment
i had been an average student in my undergrad study, took accounting as major, and most of my peer was Chinese ethnicity, perhaps it got to do with their talent as seller? dunno and its actually not what i want to say,, hehehe... OFF TOPIC..
In accounting, there this subject of investment management, in an instance, I just don't like.. just don't.. it's..well just don't like it...we don't need a reason to not to like something, do we? I tried my best to avoid the subject and the related subject, thinking I will not pursue career in Investment, anyway. So when I got C in my investment class, pure C, I mean the C because you don't study properly, not the C because the lecturer is a jerk...,, I do not care.. Just don't.. it's just.. I just,, well I just don't ok!,, we don't need a reason not to care,, do we? haha!btw the same hate-relationship applies to economics!
So I graduated from accounting from a respectable university (a bit uni-chauvinism wont hurt) and I got a job in a respectable firm as an auditor (again a bit show off wont hurt, rite? bwahahah), I worked in the Manufacturing Division, so there was no question of investment there.. But theeeeeennn, my parents want me to choose a more humane job (they think that going home at 2am in the morning is not human),, so I apply to this so-called respectable institution, and unfortunately got accepted.
Please note at that time, I did not know where they're going to place me..
They interviewed me and at that time I just found out I was going to be placed in reserve management..
I was 24, n pretty stupid I guess, I did not know what reserve management means!!
It turns out to be similar to treasury division in a commercial bank...
yup just do the math, treasury = investment + economics, DAMN!
but that's life, I mean,, God is might, God is just,, I just want to be thankful wherever I am..
pada ngeblog
gwe juga ahh
as usual sifat mo ikutaaaaann yg menang hehe
nu uhh.. none of my friends knows the existence of this blog anyway..
I'm sad..
In my whole I've never had somebody who truly wants me to be around them..
haha..
I don't mean to be a drama queen but just look at my friends..
never have them lasted..
I've lost contact with the elementary classmates..
never hang out with the junior's,,
guys in the senior years already have their own life, n no personal chit chat regroup whatsoever..
but what makes me real sad is I've lost my bestest friendss from college, without me really knowing what I did that pissed them so much..n me not knowing it, makes them pissed out even more.. :( I guess it's the little thing that I did..
then.. this month, I lost another friend,, this time I know clearly what I did.. but it's seems to be irreparable for him..
at first I thought, I'm not the one to be blame for losing best friends, but when the lightning strucked at the same place, haha can't deny it then.. it's all my bad
just now, I stumble upon me n my friends pictures in my old files, there were us..laughing..smiling.. oh how i miss the moments, really want to fix it..really want to have things the way they are but so impossible.. ive tried n give efforts to repair things, but they said it's not enough.. well then i guess it's true.. in the end, everybody will gets bored of me and leave me..
im bored..trying to write with a word processor but cant seem to find time to b able to sit n relax in front of the pc nowadays..u know with all the marriage no-helper he's-spoilt-n-me love-to-spoil-kind of thing..so let s see wheter this htc of me can help the situation since ive been envying friends who can explore n express their thoughts in their blog.. testing2?anyone can hear me?hope not coz i want to keep my writing just for myself
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