si arisona

dear baby..ur mommy emang payah ni..ga ada keren2nya..ga jd2 ngeblog serius..skrg kmu uda ard 17 mgu..n i got bad news yesterday..level ACA d darah cukup tinggi..mommy hrs ikt tes lanjutan..buat liat treatment yg hrs dkasi..smg rebo ini bisa ktmu ama dokter ahlinya

never wait for tomorrow what you can do today..


yes i know baby..you'll know some day that its cliche..but it's true..just do what you can do now dont put it off for later..there are benefits for that..you get to finish early..and you'll have time to correct if something goes wrong..and your mind wnuld not be burdened with the task..
i know the temptation to postpone will be high..but the benefit of promptly finishing your early will b rewarding..

dear baby.. have this bad mood but I happily will continue get through the day..aren't she cool your mother baby?hehe..
it's monday n there's so much to be done..I usually get hype up with all the tasks list..well that's me previously that's your mommy when she worked in an accounting firm ..where so much work to do yet so much fun to feel..while here..everything's so glumm..i dont like it here..but if its for you I will survive..

baby..have i told you how happy i am when i hear your heartbeat last saturday..they say your shape is stil like a kidney bean..still so small..i hope everything will b just fine..and i can see you at last my baby..btw they also say the firs three months is the best time to spur your growth..one month left..gotta speed up..been to loose to myself..since i crave for noodles..hope i can conquer the craving..

human..the power they have to love..do they realize it..
im sitting here at the waiting room of bunda hospital..waiting to see my obgyn..im patient number 2 today..while waiting..i notice from behind..there's a couple..the girl leans her head upon his shoulder..seeking for comfort..and his hand wrapped tightly yet compassionately on her head..as if he wants to make the sadness go away..a moment has passed..have my attention somewhere else..when i look back they're gone already..too bad i was going to see from in front of them because the view from behind is touching..see i feel the envy again..weirdo!why should I feel envy for sadness..why should I when I have so much blessings in this life..when Im expecting you dear baby..

envy


dear baby..dunno why..but ur mommy here lately always have the feeling of envy..towards everyone..while if I think it through..well I actually dont have to think it thru to know that I am blessed..i cant even count my blessings..there's too much of it..
Im going to have you in a shortwhile..that single thing still awes me..
I often feel glum..I think it's because I still can't believe I have the right to be happy..
well my conclusion is that I could not thank God enough for all this blessings..but I'll keep on trying..praising Allah SWT n hoping you my dear baby will be a better person than me..

crybaby mommy


baby,, your mommy,, is such a crybaby..
within this week, i've been crying like.. everyday
without clear cause,, well it's obvious because I'm sad..
but i dont know what made me sad..


sometimes it's because your father is not around..
or thought about stupid unimportant stuff like his/my ex-es
I really test your father patience..


by the way, I have rally of meetings, have to go now,,
see you baby,, smooch!