si arisona

Life is always in Balance

I believe this because this has happened in all my life.. For example.. I guess I'm a stolid person before a point in my life : that is when someone opened my soul, took my heart, and crushed it to pieces (yea I know a heart is not in a soul, hehe), I'm healed now but I think my heart still bares open and prone to sadness).. 

Back then, I seldom cried.. I seldom feel anything but content, I am not volatile, often numb but I did not care.. I live my life obliviously.. Happily,, and not caring about anything..

But after that point.. I cried often... Simple things make me cried, I am easily touched now.. and it's not related with the person who hurt me.. I don't even remember his face any more.. But something has changed in me.. 

That is why it leads me to think that EVERYTHING in life will always have a balance.. and a point when my heart is crushed is only the trigger, eventually I will feel..

Another example is about human's ability.. I believe God has given each human a level of optimum ability, that is where your ability is in balance with your disability.. I am clumsy, insensitive and unthoughtful, but on the other hand I also have my positive trait.. Sometimes if I try to change the negative trait,, the positive trait will slowly disappear..  But then again, we do not know this optimum level optimum so we have to always give the best effort for everything.. 

I don't like my posts by the way, not comprehensible

just ramble incoherent thoughts,, arghh