si arisona

pada ngeblog
gwe juga ahh

as usual sifat mo ikutaaaaann yg menang hehe

nu uhh.. none of my friends knows the existence of this blog anyway..
I'm sad..
In my whole I've never had somebody who truly wants me to be around them..
haha..
I don't mean to be a drama queen but just look at my friends..
never have them lasted..
I've lost contact with the elementary classmates..
never hang out with the junior's,,
guys in the senior years already have their own life, n no personal chit chat regroup whatsoever..

but what makes me real sad is I've lost my bestest friendss from college, without me really knowing what I did that pissed them so much..n me not knowing it, makes them pissed out even more.. :( I guess it's the little thing that I did..

then.. this month, I lost another friend,, this time I know clearly what I did.. but it's seems to be irreparable for him..

at first I thought, I'm not the one to be blame for losing best friends, but when the lightning strucked at the same place, haha can't deny it then.. it's all my bad

just now, I stumble upon me n my friends pictures in my old files, there were us..laughing..smiling.. oh how i miss the moments, really want to fix it..really want to have things the way they are but so impossible.. ive tried n give efforts to repair things, but they said it's not enough.. well then i guess it's true.. in the end, everybody will gets bored of me and leave me..